Do U believe??
Hmm.. Do u actually believe in karma??? Do they really happened??? Well, I really dunnoe… I use to pour that feeling over a person who doesnt worth to be care for and now i feel that im receiving all of it back from those who care abt me. I tot that im supposed to be happy, but end up, i keep thinking, how if the same thing happened again???? Will all this be fake? How if the karma really doesn’t works??? Then all this will be gone in a second jz like wad had happened last year… This few weeks, after i start playing the game, i’ve met alot of new frens, and they are like my brother and sisters… they care well for me.. Some from diff parts of malaysia and a few from kuching here… This few days, when im sad, they were always there for me… No matter wad, they are there… Jz like wad i’ve gave out before.. And i feel guilty when i’m sad cos i knw that when i cry, they’ll feel hurt and wanted me to be happy again, which I think I’ve bother them a lot in it… I knw that i get hurt easily and yea, cry easily.. That is since dunnoe when, but I really hate it.. If only I can be more strong… I can find thousand of reasons to make some one happy but sometimes, I jz cant find a reason to make myself happy… WHY??? Why issit so easy for me to give and yet so hard for me to receive? Sometimes I feel that i’m very selfish but sumtimes I really dunnoe who am i…. I tell myself b4, I wanna be back to who I used to be… The happy go lucky one and wadsoever also doesnt matter ones… that was me before… But ever since all those thing happened, One word, since i turn 16, everything changed!!! Attitude, lifestyle and even life!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!! Wad had happened?????????? I really cant wait to leave 16 year old’s world… Few more weeks to go!!!!!!!!!! I hope after that, everything will be better.. Though it wont be good but at least its better… And in here, I really wanna thank a few frens I’ve known in the game, 1st of all, Linda jie jie, and Fion jie jie.. I think the two of them is the ones who care the most for my feeling… which make me feel so bad.. haha.. Ok and next my gor gor.. Xiao tang… The 3 of them are so wonderful!!! They gave me the strength and courage to stand up.. Be who I am.. Not to be sad anymore.. And it makes me feel so guilty when I have to let them know I sad or when I cry… Even though we jz knew each other not long and its through net, but they really make a perfect bro and sis!!! Unlike wad had passed…. Yeah! wad had passed is passed!!!!!!! I should hold on to it… And of course few more frens, who always keep in touch and accompany me, June jie jie, yin lin jie jie and more.. The mei mei and di di also.. haha.. Thanks to u guys^^ really wonderful~!
