Aurelia

Dear friends, Yes! i jz wanna Say A big thank you dear all!!! I really appreciate all of the things u guys had done… All the advice and things to do and not to do from u guys.. Thank you for always be there for me. I promise myself to be strong and I’m really trying my best now.. Those of u who’r not here in kch!!!! damn, i miss u guys lots la!!! Take good care of yourself and i promise to drive u guys out when u guys came back this yr end or maybe next yr?? haha… Without u guys giving me these advices, I won’t be who I am today… Wad Elaine said was rite, friends come and go. Some u can keep but some are not worth ur thoughts. Thanks dear! And yea U, Jeremy! Though u scolded me but i know its for my gud! Thanks for always be there for me too… Sorry if i disappointed u that time… I know all i needed is time to think the rite way. Da jie pula, haha… Thanks for hearing my problem always and giving me advices and all the supports! U’re the best too!!! =P Okie wad shud i call this one?? Helen jie jie??? hahaha.. Okie la.. call u liddat lor… Thanks for accompanying me the whole night till u can’t wake up the next morning for work.. Lolz!!! So touched eh… Sob sob!!! hahahaha… Pep!!! though so long din heard from u but u’re also always there for me… Thanks yea =) Mary and xu vin!!! lolz! i miss u guys eh!!! Take care rite there!!! Thanks for the things u guys had done during ur teaching days. And the advices too.. And my whole group of crazy gurl in skul! Mich,Al and Shirley!! Especially Mich! Thanks gal! U really teach me a lot! Especially last year! I’ll always remember those times and advices! I’ll learn to be more careful in making new friends now. We really been through alot dun we?? haha… And not to forget abt U, Daphne!!! hehehe… The silly crazy one! Who always brighten up my day too!!! Thanks for all the ride and the companion. Those sweets really tasted great at the park!!! lolz! U know i know la!!! hehehe… I’m always seeking for advice… And through all this, I’m learning to be a better person indeed!!! i hope i really do! Though i dunnoe why lately the thoughts that being good person doesn’t benefit but it kills always sound in my head and i’m trying so hard not to be so good but i still feel happy when i helped others.. Damn!!! i must be crazy T_T I still love the way I am but It hurts to know that some ppl around me is not true towards me… But I Really thank God that I have U all who I really called true frens who is always there for me.. I know that u guys are all busy wit ur works so its okie if u dun have time.. And I wanna say sorry if i bothered u guys… U guys are the best! and I hope u guys would know that I’ll always be there for u guys too when u guys need some one!!! Words can’t describe how much i appreciate u guys now and more then zillions of Thanks I wanna say to u guys!!! U guys made who I am today!!! And of course my family members too lar. Well, U guys are part of it! =) So cheers everyone! And take care always!!! Lots and lots of hugsss and kissessss for u guys!!! Nights*

I really dun understand lar…. Why do ppl changed so easily??? Why do they get influenced that easy??? Why is it that human beings are so weak????? Yes! All this question is sounding in my head now and i jz can’t get any answers for any of it!!!!!!!!! My heart really broke when i see the way she treat me today. Its like as if we dun even knw each other anymore… We were Best frens!!!!!!!! 11 years of frenship! A little sister to me!!!! and yet she changed bcos of a guy!! Yea, wad mich say is really true. Wad type of fren is this to treat her own fren liddat bcos of a guy? I never say much! I jz fake a smile everytime u tell me abt wad he did so say its for u! Can’t u jz think abt it????? Think of it!!!!!!!! Why are u still so naive till now??? Its time to WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAKE UP and SEE IT FOR YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!! SEE for urself!!!!!! Wad type of guy he is!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn shit!!!!! Y must all of u changed for them?????? If u guys changed frm bad to good, its okie!!!! But it seems like it that u guys can’t live without them now!!! For goodness sake la!!!!!!!!! How old only u guys????????? some of u dun even know wad type of guy they are and yet u guys are like planning for the future i supposed??? Dun be so stupid lar!!!!! Guys, if gud one ok la! But if the ass holes one, pls la… Quickly run away from them lo! STUPID!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!! I’m like half angry half sad now!!!!!!!!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!! So ‘Faann’ ar!!!!!!!!!!!! =(

Okie, jz wanna share this. Yesterday, I was asked to lead the church choir group for the mass!!! and it was like last minute!!! So i went shivering and feeling so sked! Eh, its normal lar hor??? hahaha… It goes like this, When uncle dick reach church he say, Ellen(da jie) not coming, so aurelia u lead today… Me and janice(the young pianist) was like WHAT?!?!?!?!?! And i go, U SERIOUS????????? I tot he was joking cos i was going through the hymns with jane…. At 1st i din really take his word.. Till when the mass nearly start and I was like, is he serious??? hahahaha.. and there i go getting nervous and shivering… lolz! It was really my 1st time. Sked i sang the wrong thing, and sked that I forget the lyric, eventually i did forget the lyric! Lolz!At the lamb of God… I was like, Oh shit! wads the next word again??? I tot that the others would go in by themself, who knows end up no one singing =_=’! Very swt lor…. So we came in one beat slower.. hahaha..Really alot of silly mistakes lar that day…. My voice even crack half way =( Luckily it wasn’t obvious, i know it through aunty Helen, or should I call helen jie jie since she dun like me calling her aunty?? hahaha… Oh wells its jz a name. She say she din heard it so i was like PHEW~! luckily… If she heard it means that its really obvious lo cos she was sitting next to me  mar =) Neways, its really a very nice and big experience I’ve gained for leading the group… Now i know why issit those leaders always feel so nervous… seriously say, I really admire da jie’s braveness for leading the choir all this while, I mean, she look normal and dun even feel nervous eh. Except during other events lar… hahaha… She’s the one who I look up to since last time… Adalah the reasons why.. If u wanna know u can ask me, i dun mind sharing.. It would be kinda out of topic if i blog it under here.. hahaha… I really appreciate this chance that they gave me… Should i say, ‘Its all under god’s plan???’ hehehe

During the holidays~!
Yes yes!!! Back to school after the so called 2 weeks holiday but i dun even get a rest…Sigh~! OMG! Through the holiday really dun get enuf sleep eh. And its like everyday. 1st day of holiday which is 24th may accounts extra class from 8 till 12. Then continue RC AGM (announcing our retirement. sad la.haha) from 12 till 4… APU…. That was my most tiring day of the month.. Luckily on that week our church choir sang on sunday. Otherwise i oso dunnoe how to sing.. hahaha.. Later i announce to go through the response oso sound dead… LolZ! Okie then, the next day, 25th May, went to my law talk.. Have to reach at 8 so can u guys imagine wad time i woke up??? Sigh~ Dahla its not a short talk.. And dunnoe wad the hell that person is talking abt… Me and Nat were like playing PSP and listening to music through the talk.. hahahaha.. And yea, we meet new fren. I know.. ITs like *wow* hahaha… A 5 hour talk and yet got new fren… Cool~! Okie then, 26th and 27th got extra class again in the morning. Have to wake early again. Then 28th got tuition. After that went to test on the 29th. My law test which i failed… Sigh~! Was actually planing to re take again the next day but was a little afraid. haha.. So i took it on the following thursday which was on the….5th… yea… And i finally pass.. Woo hoo! Forget wad i did on friday liaw. I think that was the only day I get to sleep my head off till around 1 or 2… lolz! then then…. I know i woke early on that sat. But i forgot for wad liaw. I think is mum gua. Want me pei her.. Then the next day also.. Sunday.. Mum woke me up want me pei her again… Its Gawai and yet i’m like at home doing nothing.. Except for going for badminton in the afternoon.. Lolz! When its public holiday, really dun get to sleep till late late cos I’ve got a human being alarm.. Hahahaha… so proceed to wed, the 4th, the only holiday which i have time to go out for a play with frens.. So unbelievable rite?? Aurelia o~~ Aiyo… And yet only go out to play after one week of holiday flew off.. Sigh~! Go play laser tag with Elaine and her frens.. hahaha… Really had fun on that day.. thanks dear sis! =p it was also the day that they announced the increased of petrol price to RM2.70 per liter after 12pm.. WTF!!!! Then on Friday, got tuition at 9 till 12 then break for 2 hour 30 minutes then continue again from 2.30 till 5.30.. Same subject summore which is add maths.. Killing me man! then at night go to church choir practice. Church frens see me also feel like sleeping cos i give them the sleepy eye look.. XD Next day, tot that i have to went for a talk again and have to reach there at 8… who knows after paying and filling in the forms, once wanna "cap jari" it says, calon tidak cukup umur.. And again i was like WTF!!!!!! And yet the instructor ask me to go!!!! Wad a waste of time and petrol… And my mum were like mumbling… U know la.. Petrol prices increase dy… sigh~! And yea, that was my last nite of holiday, so went out wit daphne cos she say wanna borrow my laptop to do her presentation thingy. So off we go to starbucks at airport… Sit there till 12 liddat… Then went off to eat supper… Hahaha.. reach home around 1am. Then watch movie till… 6.45am!!! yes its 6.45am!!! I din even realized the time. But when i look through the window, its already bright. I tot i were dreaming.. So keep looking at the clock and not only one clock… hahaha.. who knows incase the clock spoil rite?? XD

Back to school!!!!
Monday, back to school… Its like a lot of difference eh…. One of it is that, hahahaha.. most of the form 5’s prefects aren’t wearing their prefects uniform anymore.. Old liaw ba. retire dy bar… hahahha… So especially ja ja. She look like a form2 kid in her blue uni… lolz! Next, the absence of Mary and xu vin… Yes! I suddenly feel the quietness of the school early in the morning.. XD Sound so wrong??? but its true ler… hahahha.. No one to warm up with in the morning maybe.. Lolz! Really miss the both of them eh…. And we got new teachers sesat looking for the class.. She’s like keep looking on the class name, and berulang alik in front of our class… Lolz! My classmates tot wads wrong with her, tot that she want to look for someone kah… hahhaha… And yea, 1st day go back to skul kena marah liaw.. By my sejarah teacher, cos le, i fail my sejarah lor.. But for me is like so wad?? Dun give a look on sejarah mark wad.. lolz! But her words really hurt me lar.. Whole day bo mood in school after she said that… She blame me for keep going to choir prac, "nyanyi nyanyi la.. tak payah belajar lagi kah??" the innocent me was like ‘Har’?? "apa dia cikgu??" Then she’s like, "mahu nyanyi lagi kah??" I was like " no more bah!. Already retire lar!" Actually dun dare to tell her that we haven’t complete our uniform mistress job. If she knew it, i dunnoe how long will she take to lecture me.. And damn!!! If I fail my sejarah again next term, she’s gonna send me to the principal! Wad de…. Urgh!!!!!! It makes me hate sejarah more!!! How how how????? really can’t get those stupid thing inside my head wad..> haihz!!!! Sien-ness of going to school…. SIgh!!!

I know.. I keep telling myself it really had nothing to do with me.. but why?? why issit still bothering me??? Till now… Maybe its because I really treated her as a part of my family??? But sometimes i think, its still really non of my business rite??  I just really dunnoe how to deal wit it la!!! Sigh~~ Wad is God trying to tell me now??? Forget abt it??? she’s not a real fren??? But in this world who is perfect?????????? It is not easy to put down or to let go a fren who u’ve known and have been so close for 10 years!!!! ITs not at all!!! I’ve tried my best to not to care! And its not my 1st time doing so… Sorry but to tell u the truth, I’m really DISAPPOINTED in you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Really do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really regret of supporting u to jump inside that well!!!!! And now u can’t climb up…. Till when will this go on???????  For now, I really wish that i never knew u before!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then i won’t have to act nth happened when i’m talking to u.. I dont have to act like I’m happy for u!!! I dun have to act like I DONT EVEN CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really wanted to know y is this happening??? I’ve got disappointed by so many ppl lately.. Till I learn how to let go.. I really learn a lot in this… Shud i say thanks to u guys for letting me learn???? And after that get lost!!!!!! For hurting me so badly???? The worst thing in life is to be disappointed by the person who u care for. A person called fren or Sister??? Yes, and today is not one or 2 but think back there are 3 of u! And all this happened in this 2 months! Oh and ya, think back again, its all because of guys!!!!!!!!!! Find a rite one wont u guys?????? Break up, so wad????? Going off, so wad?????? There are millions and billions and zillions of guys in this world!!! I feel that i’m really useless lar…… There are so many things in my heart which i dun even dare to say it out.. But i only can blog it out.. Im afraid that when i say it out, we’ll be enemies… Old frens, do u still remember the promises we made when we are only 10 or 12?? If u dont, i do…. I remember all the things we use to do… The times we use to care for each other,ya even though i care for u more often cos u’re like a little kid, like a little sister to me.. Sumtimes, i really wish that all this never changed, we never grow older, and we can laugh and play together… But i know that its really impossible.. Time is running, and it’ll never stop. Things is changing and it never fail to. Everything must be different because this is wad we say, a journey called LIFE! But I really wish that there will be one day, where we all realized how much burden and how bad we have hurt each other and i know that its possible.. Though we cant changed back the time, but a wound can be heal rite??? And by that time, everything will be like before will it??????? We’ll laugh together,play together and even talk lots of craps again???? I wish*