Aurelia

All this while, i tot its the best for her… I pray to God almost every time in my prayer hopping that she’ll changed back and know that, that guy really a sucker! Its because i dun like his attitude and i know that he’s leading her to a very big change! But after today, i really feel guilty and keep thinking am i doing the rite thing? Was it wrong or was it jz because its jz too late dy when things happened? Today she told me that they broke up dy. i felt happy but sad in the other way. I’m sad is because she is! I really feel like a big idiot! Making my fren sad! She tell me she’s stress abt all this! But thats life rite? I jz feel guilty. Was it an answer to my prayer by God? Or was it time for things to happened dy? Anyone know how am i feeling nw? I really dun wan them to be back together but, seeing her sad, i really wish that they never break! I tried my best to tell her that this is part of life! I really hope that she get me. If the reason is because they seldom meet, then wad’s the use of getting back together again rite? All of us have to suffer from long distance relation ship for a few years for our future next time… That is sure will happen. Sooner or later. IF liddat only oredi can’t stand, then, wad’s the use of spending ur time on him again? Might as well forget abt him la! Dun be stupid anymore la! I really feel like saying all this to u but i’m scared that it might hurt u! Have u guys ever cry for ppl who breaks?? very weird rite? I do! And its my very 1st time. Over a person who i cared alot! Jz becos she’s sad! How stupid huh? That guy is like not giving up again! Ass hole! Argh!!!!!!!!! Hate it! I really hate those who make my frens suffer! I know its hard for her to make her decision now. Whether to go back or not. I’m really confused too.. I mean like, why do i actually disagree abt their relation but when they break, i suddenly feel that my decision is wrong? Sigh~! Seeing her liddat i feel more sad! CAN SOMEONE TEACH ME WAD AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?????????? I really think that she shud not go back wit him! Like I say, its really a waste of time lo! See la now, she can’t concentrate on her studies liaw! Sien one o! Guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why do they have to make us gals suffer?????? Lately, I really misses him! I also dunnoe why! Scared that i’ve fallen for him! But he’s really annoying at times! But that’s wad makes me happy some times. And without him lately, i feel like i’m very lonely at night! Argh!!!!! GOD! Help me!