Friends?!!
Thursday, January 24th, 2008Year by year, month by month, day by day and time by time passed by.
Untill today, our frenship has been for years. Still remember how long?
I do, It has been 11 years for now. But why issit up till today then i
realised that instead of getting closer and closer, we’re geting far
apart. Did i made the wrong desicion that time to support u with him?
That is how and why u trusted him so much more then me now and rather
reply his every single msg but no more, NO MORE mine?
I really dun understand wad u mean by doing all this. U said before!
Though next time when we have our own BF or smth, we won’t throw any of
us away. But u’re doing so now and it really hurt my feeling! Don’t
tell me u dun realised it? Its like so obvious! It never happened
before till lately. Ur msg to me is like u dun even wanted to msg with
me. I can compare them wit the one u use to send to him. Though its
like no topic between the both of u, but u still can fill that page of
msg! Has it be that he is now more important then me? Haha… I should
have known it ever since u dun even care abt ur parents feelings to be
with him and even put me on the table in this! It has prove that he is
way much more important then anything for u now! Though u always said
that his not but, Ask ur heart! ISSIT REAL????
Wad was
the thing that I’ve been telling u always? I’ve told u all the things
that I’ve been through in hopping that u won’t walk those ways! But i
know that u r heading towards them and all I can do is to see my 11
years of friendship, sister walk into it and all i can do is hopping
and praying that u’ll realised how stupid ur deed is today! Maybe u dun
hate me. But all the things that u r doing now, i really dunnoe wad can
i do. I really wanted to know wad issit that u’re treating me like! Do
u really treasure our 11 years of friendship? U told me u do that time,
and u know wad? Only a simple word like that makes me happy up till
now. But it seems like i’ve been fooled isn’t it? Its not that i dun
wanna support the both of u together. But see wad are u like now??????
That time u tell me that this wont changed anything. So i trusted u,
but do u know how much courage do i have to take out in puting this
trust on u when i think that u’re still so naif? I keep telling myself,
U’re a clever gal who knows the way, i should trust u! Dun worry
anymore! But all i see now is that, U’re not only trying to turn ur
back against me but also going out of ur mind! Dunnoe how to control or
think properly!
U were my best friend who i trusted so much
which i tot that i can share my everything with! Yes! U do listen to my
problems, and din’t say a thing to anyone or maybe jz that i dunnoe?
but after all this, how would u expect me to trust u anymore? Trusting
a fren who u dun even know whether she still treat u as a fren or not
or trusting a naif gal and a selfish one who only always thinks for
herself? I really wanted to tell u that u r selfish! As a fren, i
accept wad u r and who u r! That is how our frenship last! But there is
always a limit! Everything has it! Even a balloon will burst if u keep
blowing it till there’s no more place for more air! Vina tell me to jz
let u be, dun msg u then if u so bay gam guan wanna reply, I really
hope that i can do wad she say but its like i dun wanna let go u know?
11 years!!
I know that u won’t look for me if i dun look
for u! That is y things always turn out to be i took the 1st step! How
long will my anger last? Will it be long? That 3 month was the longest
time i’ve ever turn a back to u! And its all because of him! His
problem! That was actually i wanted to let u solve it urself cos i was
really tired dy cos that time I was sick and under medication after
that! When i was told that i have weak lungs that time, I really hope
that things can get better in between us! And yeah, Whenever i take the
1st step, It never fails cos i controlled! U told me u cried that time
cos u tot that i dun wanna bother abt u anymore. Was it really true?
Will u cry for our friendship? Sometimes, i wish that we can go back to
those time when we’re still in primary schools and we used to go
outside and play together. the times when we like the same things, the
same model of phones and even plan to have it next time when we worked,
the same thoughts between us! I really miss those days! rite now, I’m
really hopping things wont go worst among us! I really dun feel like
letting go this frenship! If u take my word, then take this last one,
Nothing is more important then FAMILY and REAL FRIENDS around u! Even
ur own BF can cheat on u! Not unless u r confident that his feelings
towards u is REAL! True friends came into ur life and will leave
footprints, No matter wad happened between u and ur Family or true
friends, they will always forgive u when u know that u’ve done wrong! I
will forgive u and I’ll wait for the day to come!
