Aurelia

Hmmm… IT has been more then a month since i last written a blog… Well, In this say long not long, say short not short punya time, My life, the one who i love the most(my jie) changed! OMG!!!! Life is so so so weird, interesting, funny, challenging and many mores which will make u fall if u’re not strong enough to faced it! I really dun feel like saying anything abt this but she really changed! Into a new and diff person… I really can’t accept all this at 1st, but when, when its really really time for us to think more open, positively and maturely, Let go is the best! In this whole month time, i’ve been thinking and asking myself… was it because of the things that i’ve done? If it is, wad issit? I really dunnoe… I was confused till today. But after all this happened, i know that who’s the one who always with me when things happened and who really cares. Sometimes, i really think that God is really playing me.. But in other way, i’m learning frm all this. Its a process of growing up neways. Will God, pls lord! Stop all this lord?? I’m really tired… I really had enough playing in this game! Game over lord.. Pls.. Jz let me go now? I really wanted to quit now… Thanks for the wonderful 3 months with a sister who betrayed me after that lord.. I really thanks u! Cos if u din give me her, lord, I wont know how issit having a real big sister, 2nd, i wont know how issit lossing one and 3rd lord, i wont knw who’s real and fake… Thanks lord for all those who stayed with me through all this! Bless them lord and may they be happy always and true to me lord! Help me to be there for them too when they need it… Lord, thanks for letting me be who i am today… Life really changed from today lord! From today!!!!!!!!!! She’s out of my life as a sis! Not till she really return to me lord if u r planning all this… I’ll accept her lord like how u forgive our sins… I’ve learn a lot and experienced the most in all this that happens. Maybe after all this, i’ll stop being a fool and be more smart? And also, i’m kinda scared in making new frens now.. Sigh~! I know its bad but i’ll try to handle all this.. =) Peace out all!!!!!! take care always darlings~!