Aurelia

Im feeling sad, depressed, hopeless and………… all the negative feelings~ I jz cant find a reason to smile nor laugh rite now! Damn!!! Jz F****** freaking low now! SHIT! hate this feeling! I feel like shouting but i cant open my mouth!!! I feel like crying…………. and i did but its not enuf! i feel like crying again but im afraid~~~

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I really dunnoe~~~ I jz dun like it….. Its me and im me~ yer~~~~~~~~ I really cant stand small gas ppl! especially guys!!! darn hate it!!! I dunnoe why when ppl small gas to me, i double small gas back =.= Jz cant understand why guys now adays are so darn small gas =.= shiate!!! really hate them @@ I can imagine if my BF were to be like that next time! i mean imagine wad i will do to him XD Yer~~~~~~~~~~~~~ darn sien!!!! And i knw that my attitude has hurt u 33 jie… but i really cant bare this type of ppl~ Jz make it as my fault… I think that wit he around, I sure will get angry…. So its better that i still wanna avoid myself from getting angry then staying there and get angry =.= swts~ wad am i talking abt neways? nvm~ Bet u’ll understand XD

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And oh! I was supposed to blog abt smth on sunday or monday nite de =.= but too lazy XD mang zhe ta ma jiang XD~~  game de ma jiang lar ok? ish ish~~ dun think me like that mar T_T forget jor dunnoe on which nite was it, yeah~ i was depressed again, darn worry abt results and studies lar~~ aiyo yo~~ then yer~~~ wanna say this again.. Thanks to 33 jie and Maksim ^^ the 2 siao cha bo that brighten up my nite~~~ But i wanna say smth here to both of u which is SORRY~ Cos i knw that i did make u guys sad that nite~ hopefully u guys din cry XD.. yer~~ hate it ler..  33 jie always talk better then me =.= when i sad she sure talk thousands of dao li give me hear… Really happy to knw the both of u and others too ^^ the songs u guys sang to me that nite were great ^.^ gan dong jor T_T both are good singer~! Waiting for their album though XD wakakkakaka~~ Maksim is the next sun yanzi XD san san jie’s got nice voice and talent ^^ yer~~~ I so many idol jor XD hahahaha~~ sure bankrupt buying their album one day T_T~~ Nvm!! Rite now i got maks maks recording in my hand XD wakakakakak.. next time she famous jor i can sell… Sure rich de me XD wakakakakakka

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on the 1st of Oct, HARI RAYA!! No lar! not gonna blog abt that! shish~~~ me pure chinese lar ok =.= blog abt fellowship port luck dinner at de submit! Yer~~~~~~~~ Had alot of fun! especially during karaoke XD darn paiseh *shy* laugh and sing till tired XD mum wait me till tired also… hahaha.. luckily i was singing gua~ if no she’ll pull me home earlier XD And thanks to da jie, who sang wit me XD zhu wo sheng ri kuai le =.= supposed to be sing for her de but end up i dunnoe the lyric.. darn paiseh XD hahahaha… our shan hu hai darn bad lor… lolz~~~ yer~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ darn tired dy~~ wanna sleep~~~ gud nite ^.^Y

Lolz~~ see my title dy knw how lazy am i to update my blog =.= but there’s really alot of things I wanna share wit u guys~~ And yes!!!! September which is MOCK EXAM month~ ZzzzZzzzzZz~~~ Stress like hell and i really hate that feeling~ Gastric getting worst, head also same =.= Here pain there pain T_T Guess im old oredy XD

ST PETER’S CHURCH SALES DAY

Ok ok here’s the updates~ Hmm… where shud i start??? Got it~ Let me start wit ST PETER’s church sales~ And yea, I went to help~ Was erm… Ok lar… boleh tahan lar. But hor, hot to death =.= really damn hot ar that day… And the worst of the best is that, or shud i say worst of the worst??? XD I slept around 3am or 4 am that day and i was refuse to wake up~~~ == darn tired lor~~ reach  church around 7 smth i think.. XD was supposed to be there at 7 XD oh wellz~ doesnt make any difference… hahaha.. Cos the time I reach, our stall havent start selling yet cos… No electricity =.= zzzzz really *** lor =.= liddat also can =.= I was darn tired there waiting for the electric~ Luckily after a while the supply came back XD Thank God~~~ So we went preparing the stuff~~ Our group were selling LOK LOK and corn dog, guess i get the spelling rite XD And Da jie them sold the O chi pala thing~~ alot of food and cakes~~ knw wad?? i was given a job… PROMOTER =.= hate it… going around wit those cakes and ‘kueh’ asking ppl to buy =.= so wad de…. Really dun understand those ppl =.= ok ok here it goes… My question and answer from them

ME: Uncle wan buy cakes??

Uncle: ar? wad cake?

ME: We have cheese cakes, home made one.. very nice..

Uncle: How much??

ME: RM 10 only.. Whole cheese bo~~ Very very nice one. Here got sample for u to tast

Uncle: Wah?? Or like that lor, i help u buy u help me buy…

ME: =.= err… *walk away wit a forced smile on the face

Geeezzzz~~~ Grrrrr kek sei ngo~~~

The sales was kinda successful i think XD hahahaha…

We manage to raise a total og RM1535 if im not mistaken

It was a pretty tiring day for me since i only slept for how many hours =.=
Darn tired and weather so hot some more =.=

OK~ END of church sales XD…

NEXT

This is my main purpose of blogging today~~ Which is.. To be honest, actually rite, i wanted to blog oredi on saturday nite i think.. but hor… play till forget time jor =.= so when remember abt blogging, oredi darn tired.. so decided to jz off the laptop and go to bed XD Ok ok..

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY CHRISTINASAN ^.^Y

Now, I wanna blog abt christinasan a.k.a san san jie’s bday … My meetoto buddy…. A great and lovely fren ^^ Glad to knw her… Ever since i joined the group *.♥愛情♂♀咖啡♪♬廳♥.* or we called it as family in the game, Well, it is like a one big warm family ^^ frens from all over the world.. majority are malaysians.. Lolz~ Ok ok this is wad we did during her bday.. She grabbed lounge and we were crazy the whole nite there… We sang some songs for her to wish her a great bday and i think we did play some games?? XD lolz~ i totaly forgotten.. getting late now and im sleepy =.= zzzz We celebrated her bday on saturday nite.. here are some pictures we took XD Darn cute one…

LOLz~ This might be small but these are memories ^^

Hahahah~ Guess that i’ll re edit the pics when i’m free~~~ OmG~~ Really took me a few days to write this blog =.= Once again I wanna wish dear san san A very Happy Birthday~~ Hope all ur wish come true and all the best in everything u’re doing. Really happy to be in this family and knw all of u especially san san who always be there for me when i’m down XD the crazy and ganas one when angry.. Wakakakaka… Was really feeling bad when she got sad yesterday cos of a guy who play a fooled on us~~~ I was feeling bad cos when i’m sad, she’s always there to cheer me up but when she’s sad, I cant do anything =.= kek sei yan =.= In this post besides wanna wish u, I also wanna thank u ^.^Y I believe everything is a gift from god.. that is why i treasure them ^^

Besides,Im also happy to knw a few of others from the family and in meetoto too… those ppl like xiao yu jie, shan shan jie, qiqi jie, xing guang jie, dennys and recently met some more new gila gang, maksim and karu and also guradisu XD kch ppl also.. wakakakka… All got nice nice unik name XD Jz love u gals~~ All this I have to thank jie jie (jenny88) cos she’s the one who bring me into this family~ ^^ And the guys… crazy one,or shud i say hamsap one… Hahaha… They are Bubble gum, lao da, milan, 5 tiao jiao, and those innocent once are jj, jayz, consider vanila as one too cos never see him hamsap b4 yet XD, and others… There are lots of them XD

Those frens i met who are from diff groups one~~ wakakaka… Ireen jie XD JK jie, Lili, racle jie, and many many more~~ Lolz~~~ So many ler =.= how to list?? the rest in earlier post got write dy gua~ XD Was really really lost dy… This post has been continue for few days dy =.= Need to finish up this post liao~!!!

on sunday nite, our family *.♥愛情♂♀咖啡♪♬廳♥.* organized a PK contest open to all… 12 people paricipated…And we have 3 winners… They are really great! We give out Cat suit as the 1st prize, Bunny suit as the 2nd prize and lantern suit as the 3rd prize ^^ =.= kek sei yan~~ The picture cannot upload T_T I think i need to continue in another post~~ This one have to quickly post up liao.. San san jie’s bday pass so long dy XD wakkakaka.. And yet this post havent been posted yet~ ZzzzzzzZzzzz Till then~ more to come in september updates 2 XD

And not to forget abt my Kuching family~ lolz~ Fion jie, Gary xiao di and me XD wakakkakaka

Love all my dear frens and family~~~ Muacks ^.^

Yes yes yes~!! i knw that its like hahaha~ one week ago, but hahaha~ have been lazy and busy these days~ Oh wellz, Mock exam rite now.. wad to do XD ok ok~ so now here it goes~ Curious on how did i celebrated my bday??? hahahah~ Well this year, a little bit diff~ and its a little bit supprising XD haha~ ok i dun wan keep u guys from guessing~ I celebrated, i mean count down my bday in online games! Lolz~ I knw i knw~ My very 1st time…But i felt all the fun that i never felt before^^ all those who celebratd for me is I knew them through the game, and yet u can feel the warmest~ The feeling~ Like a whole bunch of family with me celebrating~ yeah in the game we are like a family, a group of player ^^ I really love this feelings, excitment and joys that they gave me on that nite ^^ they sang me songs which no one deed before~ Ok ok~ Lets intro my family members in Meeduoduo~ hahaha… 1st of all, our lao da, Jetson, next milan and 5 tiao jiao~ hahaha..  the leader and vice leader of the family~ Then jenny jie jie and san san jie jie, qi qi jiejie, and xiao yu jie jie, the directors, haha, and the rest shanshan jiejie,xin guang jie jie, bubble gum, niao shen, hahaha~ all weird weird de name lo~ i forgot jor~ oops.. sorry ya those who’s name not listed.. dun xiao qu lar XD I still remember u guys in Meeduoduo mar.. hahaha.. I really enjoyed alot that nite.. thanks to all of u, especially san san jie jie who sang so many songs for me, sob sob, gan dong sie XD, and also xiao yu jie jie who fight for the lounge.. hahaha… jetson lao da who stay whole nite jz to countdown for me, Lolz~ and bubble gum, with that crazy things that he’s doing, all of us stayed awak till quite late that nite.. haha.. Really appreciate it lar^^ The songs that u guys sang on that day(no matter hao lan it is) will foever mean smth to me^^ Love u guys always^^ /kiss~ haha..

At skul pula~ the banana gang XD Y called banana gang?? find it out urself lar.. hahaha.. Pic’s will to be updated later.. cos i lazy now XD.. wanna sleep dy ler>< 2moro exams… OMG~ Not yet learn.. hahaha.. And yeah, the banana gang ^^ I knw im old le lar >< dun give me that look mar.. hahaha.. When i reach skul, both of them give me the look o.O XD which i cant stand it… And yeah~ Did i eventually mentioned wad time did i slept??? yes it was around 2am XD hahaha.. And woke at 6.. keng ler? haihz~ really lar~ that morning, i fell asleep during sejarah period.. hahahah~ yea yea i knw>< lalalalalala~ Bday dai sai mar XD And then we end up we play camera during Bm period.. hahaha.. Keep taking pictures lor.. wakakakaka~

Then next, after tution time == tired sie liao… panda eyes really come out le.. XD After tuition, go buy cakes, This is weird>< bday gal go buy cake == My uncle celebrating his early bday during my bday == nice? haha.. Ok lar~ One more cake nia mar… hahaha… make me tired only lor… then go back home bath, then online… And hor, that san san jie>< papaya XD keep promoting lor~ Sked sei ppl dunnoe is my bday… hahaha.. Nvm, her bday cuming so i can promote her liao this time.. wakakakaka… Ok le>< to be continue.. i wanna sleep le.. hahaha.. nitez

Hmm.. Do u actually believe in karma??? Do they really happened??? Well, I really dunnoe… I use to pour that feeling over a person who doesnt worth to be care for and now i feel that im receiving all of it back from those who care abt me. I tot that im supposed to be happy, but end up, i keep thinking, how if the same thing happened again???? Will all this be fake? How if the karma really doesn’t works??? Then all this will be gone in a second jz like wad had happened last year… This few weeks, after i start playing the game, i’ve met alot of new frens, and they are like my brother and sisters… they care well for me.. Some from diff parts of malaysia and a few from kuching here… This few days, when im sad, they were always there for me… No matter wad, they are there… Jz like wad i’ve gave out before.. And i feel guilty when i’m sad cos i knw that when i cry, they’ll feel hurt and wanted me to be happy again, which I think I’ve bother them a lot in it… I knw that i get hurt easily and yea, cry easily.. That is since dunnoe when, but I really hate it.. If only I can be more strong… I can find thousand of reasons to make some one happy but sometimes, I jz cant find a reason to make myself happy… WHY??? Why issit so easy for me to give and yet so hard for me to receive? Sometimes I feel that i’m very selfish but sumtimes I really dunnoe who am i…. I tell myself b4, I wanna be back to who I used to be… The happy go lucky one and wadsoever also doesnt matter ones… that was me before… But ever since all those thing happened, One word, since i turn 16, everything changed!!! Attitude, lifestyle and even life!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!! Wad had happened?????????? I really cant wait to leave 16 year old’s world… Few more weeks to go!!!!!!!!!!  I hope after that, everything will be better.. Though it wont be good but at least its better… And in here, I really wanna thank a few frens I’ve known in the game, 1st of all, Linda jie jie, and Fion jie jie.. I think the two of them is the ones who care the most for my feeling… which make me feel so bad.. haha.. Ok and next my gor gor.. Xiao tang… The 3 of them are so wonderful!!! They gave me the strength and courage to stand up.. Be who I am.. Not to be sad anymore.. And it makes me feel so guilty when I have to let them know I sad or when I cry… Even though we jz knew each other not long and its through net, but they really make a perfect bro and sis!!! Unlike wad had passed…. Yeah! wad had passed is passed!!!!!!! I should hold on to it… And of course few more frens, who always keep in touch and accompany me, June jie jie, yin lin jie jie and more.. The mei mei and di di also.. haha.. Thanks to u guys^^ really wonderful~!

I am dedicating this poem to my friends. Hope u guys like it because I really love it. Thanks to the one who gave it to me ^^ Great day to u gal!

POEM SPECIALLY FOR A FRIEND

A friend is a person to laugh and cry with,
An inspiration,
someone who lends a helping hand,
Though friends may not be forever,
and they may not end up together,
the memories of a true friendship
will last FOREVER.

A friend is not a shadow NOR a servant
but someone who hold
a piece of a person in his heart.
Someone who shares a smile,
someone who brightens up your day.
What makes a person a friend?
Is by saying your LOVE will stay.

Friendship come and friendship go,
like wave upon the sand,
like day and night,
like birds in flight,
like snowflakes when they land
but you and I are SOMETHING else.

Our friendship is here to stay,
like weeds and rocks,
It never goes away.
A friend is a treasure.
A friend is someone we turns to,
when our SPIRITS need a lift.

A friend is someone we treasure,
for our friendship is a GIFT.
A friend is someone who fills our lives,
with BEAUTY, JOY and GRACE.
This friendship make the world we live in
A BETTER and HAPPIER place

I really love this poem. It really tells me the meaning of true friends… Though when i was half way writing it out again, I lost the meaning of it, but I’ve got it back now. Oh, This poem comes with a drawing from my friend… How sweet rite?? haha.. Thank you all! without u guys, I Don’t know wad should I hang on to ^^

nice rite the drawing?? haha

 
The teddy bear so cute XD

And now the lovely poems =P

Form 5, last year of school! I really can’t believe that there are full of bad memories this year instead of sweet ones… I really can’t believe everything that is happening now in skul. Everyday! Seeing one by one of the gals in my class quarrel and arguing… including myself. Fighting for our own rites…Fren’s falling sick… Frens turn to enemy.. Shouting and banging table in class.. The shouting once was by me.. Lolz! aiks! Really lar… Wad year is this?? I tot 2008 supposed to be a good year?? 4 more months left and we are done wit school! Stop all this crap wont u guys??? I really miss the science4 last year!!! We are like a one big family!!! This year its like the family has been broken apart! Thats abt the classroom scene.. As for me, frens around me changed.. Come and go..Those who i used to hate turn to frens. Those who were frens turn away and forget the value of frens…. I really dun get these ppl’s thoughts lor.. wad do they think frens are?? Wad are frens to them??? Something to play wit?? I dun think its fun to play frenship… I take them very seriously… Stop fooling with my our frenship if u never or dun even appreciate them!!! I can treat u twice better if u treat me good…And i also can treat u twice as bad if i want to if u offend me!!!!!!! Its weird rite?? When we quarrel wit BF, we turn to frens. If we quarrel with frens, we turn to frens too. IF we quarrel wit family members, who we find?? Frens too!!! But how come some ppl can jz take frenship as a game??? They betray, back stabbed and play wit wad they call frens… Being a human being is not hard. But to be a good and responsible human being, its much harder then breathing… Wad more to say to be a good fren??? Sum times i dun get the meaning of frens… Im sure u all know the feeling of disappointed towards a fren rite?? Its not nice rite??? Frens are a very very special gift from god!!! Who we meet is all under god’s plan.. God give us fren to share things and its up to u to decide how u wanna appreciate it.. I believe wad u give is wad u received! Learn to understand ur frens… Everyone has a heart and it gives us feeling… Learn to use it… Its one of the most important body part…. We give and take… Dun be greedy! Give before u take.. I will give u more then wad i take…. I dun need anything frm u guys but jz a true frenship… this sentence is to all those who treat me as a fren… Dun worry.. If u really treat me as a fren, u are more then jz a fren to me already ^.^ I’ll always be there for u guys… To protect and to give advices… And most of all to do my best for u guys!

DAmn it damn it damn it!!!!!!!!! That ass hole!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!! F*** her F*** her!!! Small little things also wanna complain to PK HEM!!! WTF!!!!!!! If only i wasn’t in form 5 this year.. IF only i dunnit that testimonial!!! If only and if only there werent so many things on the way!!! Damn! I’m so gonna slap her on the face!!!!!!!!! She go and changed the whole story!!!!!! Everything that we heard in the PK’s room is totally different!!!!!! That is so WTH!!!! Go to hell lar!!!!!! Chio lang but sked!!! F**K off man!!!! Scold ppl also dun dare too loud!!! Mai***** argh!!!!!! Damn it!!! Jz can’t express my anger now!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!! Want to know the whole story?? Ask me personally!!! I sked if i continue now, my laptop will spoil by me.. Hahaha.. GRrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Last word!!! F*** HER!!!! YEA!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear friends, Yes! i jz wanna Say A big thank you dear all!!! I really appreciate all of the things u guys had done… All the advice and things to do and not to do from u guys.. Thank you for always be there for me. I promise myself to be strong and I’m really trying my best now.. Those of u who’r not here in kch!!!! damn, i miss u guys lots la!!! Take good care of yourself and i promise to drive u guys out when u guys came back this yr end or maybe next yr?? haha… Without u guys giving me these advices, I won’t be who I am today… Wad Elaine said was rite, friends come and go. Some u can keep but some are not worth ur thoughts. Thanks dear! And yea U, Jeremy! Though u scolded me but i know its for my gud! Thanks for always be there for me too… Sorry if i disappointed u that time… I know all i needed is time to think the rite way. Da jie pula, haha… Thanks for hearing my problem always and giving me advices and all the supports! U’re the best too!!! =P Okie wad shud i call this one?? Helen jie jie??? hahaha.. Okie la.. call u liddat lor… Thanks for accompanying me the whole night till u can’t wake up the next morning for work.. Lolz!!! So touched eh… Sob sob!!! hahahaha… Pep!!! though so long din heard from u but u’re also always there for me… Thanks yea =) Mary and xu vin!!! lolz! i miss u guys eh!!! Take care rite there!!! Thanks for the things u guys had done during ur teaching days. And the advices too.. And my whole group of crazy gurl in skul! Mich,Al and Shirley!! Especially Mich! Thanks gal! U really teach me a lot! Especially last year! I’ll always remember those times and advices! I’ll learn to be more careful in making new friends now. We really been through alot dun we?? haha… And not to forget abt U, Daphne!!! hehehe… The silly crazy one! Who always brighten up my day too!!! Thanks for all the ride and the companion. Those sweets really tasted great at the park!!! lolz! U know i know la!!! hehehe… I’m always seeking for advice… And through all this, I’m learning to be a better person indeed!!! i hope i really do! Though i dunnoe why lately the thoughts that being good person doesn’t benefit but it kills always sound in my head and i’m trying so hard not to be so good but i still feel happy when i helped others.. Damn!!! i must be crazy T_T I still love the way I am but It hurts to know that some ppl around me is not true towards me… But I Really thank God that I have U all who I really called true frens who is always there for me.. I know that u guys are all busy wit ur works so its okie if u dun have time.. And I wanna say sorry if i bothered u guys… U guys are the best! and I hope u guys would know that I’ll always be there for u guys too when u guys need some one!!! Words can’t describe how much i appreciate u guys now and more then zillions of Thanks I wanna say to u guys!!! U guys made who I am today!!! And of course my family members too lar. Well, U guys are part of it! =) So cheers everyone! And take care always!!! Lots and lots of hugsss and kissessss for u guys!!! Nights*

I really dun understand lar…. Why do ppl changed so easily??? Why do they get influenced that easy??? Why is it that human beings are so weak????? Yes! All this question is sounding in my head now and i jz can’t get any answers for any of it!!!!!!!!! My heart really broke when i see the way she treat me today. Its like as if we dun even knw each other anymore… We were Best frens!!!!!!!! 11 years of frenship! A little sister to me!!!! and yet she changed bcos of a guy!! Yea, wad mich say is really true. Wad type of fren is this to treat her own fren liddat bcos of a guy? I never say much! I jz fake a smile everytime u tell me abt wad he did so say its for u! Can’t u jz think abt it????? Think of it!!!!!!!! Why are u still so naive till now??? Its time to WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAKE UP and SEE IT FOR YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!! SEE for urself!!!!!! Wad type of guy he is!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn shit!!!!! Y must all of u changed for them?????? If u guys changed frm bad to good, its okie!!!! But it seems like it that u guys can’t live without them now!!! For goodness sake la!!!!!!!!! How old only u guys????????? some of u dun even know wad type of guy they are and yet u guys are like planning for the future i supposed??? Dun be so stupid lar!!!!! Guys, if gud one ok la! But if the ass holes one, pls la… Quickly run away from them lo! STUPID!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!! I’m like half angry half sad now!!!!!!!!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!! So ‘Faann’ ar!!!!!!!!!!!! =(

Okie, jz wanna share this. Yesterday, I was asked to lead the church choir group for the mass!!! and it was like last minute!!! So i went shivering and feeling so sked! Eh, its normal lar hor??? hahaha… It goes like this, When uncle dick reach church he say, Ellen(da jie) not coming, so aurelia u lead today… Me and janice(the young pianist) was like WHAT?!?!?!?!?! And i go, U SERIOUS????????? I tot he was joking cos i was going through the hymns with jane…. At 1st i din really take his word.. Till when the mass nearly start and I was like, is he serious??? hahahaha.. and there i go getting nervous and shivering… lolz! It was really my 1st time. Sked i sang the wrong thing, and sked that I forget the lyric, eventually i did forget the lyric! Lolz!At the lamb of God… I was like, Oh shit! wads the next word again??? I tot that the others would go in by themself, who knows end up no one singing =_=’! Very swt lor…. So we came in one beat slower.. hahaha..Really alot of silly mistakes lar that day…. My voice even crack half way =( Luckily it wasn’t obvious, i know it through aunty Helen, or should I call helen jie jie since she dun like me calling her aunty?? hahaha… Oh wells its jz a name. She say she din heard it so i was like PHEW~! luckily… If she heard it means that its really obvious lo cos she was sitting next to me  mar =) Neways, its really a very nice and big experience I’ve gained for leading the group… Now i know why issit those leaders always feel so nervous… seriously say, I really admire da jie’s braveness for leading the choir all this while, I mean, she look normal and dun even feel nervous eh. Except during other events lar… hahaha… She’s the one who I look up to since last time… Adalah the reasons why.. If u wanna know u can ask me, i dun mind sharing.. It would be kinda out of topic if i blog it under here.. hahaha… I really appreciate this chance that they gave me… Should i say, ‘Its all under god’s plan???’ hehehe